The new semester has begun already. We have finished the second week of the semester. Each semester, we need to teach 26 to 27 lectures within 14 weeks. I am glad I have covered 6 lectures already within two weeks due some extra classes that I have made since last week. Alhamdulillah. Most likely I will be missing one or two lectures in the coming weeks. So, since I have the opportunity, let me have all the extra classes before I could miss them so that I dont have to replace them in future.
There are a lot of things happened for the past one week. First, I lost my uncle who had been bedridden for the past 6-7 years..Well, I got the news quite late due to my busy schedule as an academic advisor which i had to be at a specific room from 8.30am to 1 pm and 2pm to 4.30pm. It was a hectic time for me..However, when I got 3 missed calls from my sister in Singapore, one missed call from my Mom and the other one from my sister in Bangi, I started to feel that something wrong had happened. While I was tying to figure out what could be, a group of students knocking the door and told me they had a big problem with subjects and clashes of classes..This problem had to be dealt meticulously from one student to another student. Having done that, there was another student coming to get my signature..fuyooh! I need to to call my mom right away. I could only make a call around 1.45pm. I was right, she broke to me the news.. Well, what to do..I almost broke down and suddenly, one student coming with sad face and complained to me about her problem..She was very sad that her result was not good..her eyes sparkling with tears..Sigh..i also have the tears and my heart sunk hearing about the death of my uncle..but i have to stay strong.. I have to console and motivate her and looked ahead. the past is history, today is reality and tomorrow is still a mystery..
Some of the students are so engrossed with the Dean's List at the expense of their life and health. They study like a hell , forgot about eating and health so that they could maintain their CGPA. To be on the Dean's List is a bonus in your life..The most important thing is to inculcate the positive values and good attitude because these virtues are the important elements for you to be happy. As a teacher, I have to be happy and show to my students that I am always a happy person so that they will be able to enjoy my class and benefit from my lecture even at the expense of personal feelings.. I did not tell this to any of my friends because I know this would make me feel more sad..
Today, I spoke to my aunty ( late uncle's wife) and she seemed to be positive through her voice tone..I am just asking how she was and how did she cope with her life now.. She said everything is fine. " I was just missed him..Missed the normal routine that I sat next to him, gave him food and cared for him.."
To my students, life is very short..There is no need for you think seriously about what is in the past.. look ahead. beyond the horizon..grab the opportunity before you. May Allah grant me long life and best of health so that I will be able to teach my students and give them marks accordingly..Please Allah, dont make me sick so that I will not miss my class, otherwise my students will suffer because of my absence.. Dont make me a burden to other people.